Love-Hate Relationship

Like many other digi scrappers out there, I decided to use a free template being offered part of a challenge over Jessica Sprague's Web site as part of "7 Days in May."
I learned something that I already knew ... this sort of layout is just not my style. I tried and tried to tweak the template to make it more like me .. .but it just didn't work for me. Doesn't mean it's bad .. just means it's not for me. And I knew right away, but I tried to force it to work for me, which lead to a lot of frustration.

Anyway. I created this layout on Monday as part of LOAD. The prompt that day was to dig deep and journal about something that's a little tough for you. Here's my "tough" journaling. I journal like this a lot. In fact, for me, it's harder to do one-word journaling than tough, not so happy stuff.

Journaling reads:

On the road again. Always on the road. Airport delays. Crummy food. Uncomfortable hotel rooms. Perpetually tired. Constantly sick. I have a serious love-hate relationship with my job. I'm really good at my job. I like working. And I know that I'm not cut out to be full-time, stay-at-home mom.  Yet, every single time I leave my family behind, I'm overcome with gut-wrenching sadness and flooded with guilt. I can't stand missing out on their lives. It obviously affords me the opportunity to travel; helps take care of my family; allows for flexibility when I am home ... but nearly five years into it and close to a million miles, I might just be done.